The "list"

Holy Moly!! A mid-day post!! Getting on the main computer in broad daylight is a rarity around here!! I figured I would try and take advantage of the few quiet minutes I have while the little monster (AKA Lily) is napping in her crib and the big monster (AKA Kaylee) is watching Alice and Wonderland in my bed upstairs.

As another big underway is almost upon us, i've been thinking about "the list".

What is the list? You guys know...."the list" is all the things you think you are going to accomplish while your spouse is deployed. What is on my list you ask? Hmm....well, I haven't thought about it TOO much but things off the top of my head are:

1. NOT HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN!!! (Yes, this is at the top of my list, ha! Is this a realistic expectation of myself? Probably not. I will almost definitely have a nervous breakdown at one point or another, but hey, are girl can hope right?)



2. Redo Kaylee's room. Make it more "big girlish". Same with Lily's probably. I hate how small her room is in this house. I so miss the beautiful nursery we created for her in Texas. Everything was pink and brown and just perfect. We rent here so we aren't painting any walls. So along with this item on the list, i'de like to be able to put the toddler bed together if need be. I am not so handy with the tools though, so we will see.



3. Start a small garden with the girls. Kaylee asked me the other day if we can have a garden. Who am I to deny her that? I should warn her though, Mommy does not have a green thumb. I cannot keep anything alive. Well, I take that back. There is one plant that someone gave me when we moved to Texas, I have no idea what kind it is, but i call it the "Miracle Plant". You CANNOT kill the thing! I have gone MONTHS without watering it. Then I get the itch again and give it some water and wa-la! It grows! It looks like a clover.



4. Find a way to become organized. (Ugh, don't get me started on this one!)



5. Get Lily into some sort of tumbling class.
   

I am sure I will come up with many, many more. I guess I am sort of holding out. I do have more in my head, but they are probably unrealistic. I am trying not to set my expectations too high......

I will have to finish this later....sleepy head just woke up screaming her little head off.

Well, it is HOURS later!! So, I guess my mid-day post turned into a nighttime post.

Anyways, I am trying not to set my expectations to high for the deployment. My main goal is to just stay sane, not have any severe nervous breakdowns, and just survive the life of a single mama with two kiddos. I also would like to see more of what San Diego has to offer....to really experience the city before it is time for us to leave. I want to hike, I want to go on ocean tours, I want to see more of Balboa Park, I want to go to the ocean (that's right....we still have not been to the beach here).

We love him. We miss him desperately when he is gone. We are strong. We will get through this. We are going to live our lives with or without him here.

I have to keep telling myself this every day.