First post!

So i have been wanting to start a blog for some time now. I used to be an avid Livejournaler before "blogging" became popular or whatever. My daily (sometimes multiple) journal postings made me feel more connected to myself. I started writing things down that i didn't even know were in my head. So, it was theraputic. I still enjoy going back and reading about my college days...well, sometimes not so much.

The focus of this blog is going to be about the trials and tribulations of being a Navy Wife...well, a navy family really. As we face the upcoming deployment, there are so many emotions scattered all over this household. I sometimes feel like "just go already!!" Only because we have been talking about it for so long and it just seems like ok, just go so we can start this long process and you can come home to us already!!

There is SOO much to be done before the big D Day. There are wills to be updated, powers of attorneys, household repairs, finanical discussions...the list goes on. I am a little overwhemled. Sometimes I feel strong like i totally got this...and other times i feel paniced like "what am i going to do??" When we were in Corpus Christi, Texas I got the best advice. Well, it wasn't really advice. It was just something i picked up from a conversation I was having with a woman that I could not stand (more on that in a minute). She said something like "We are going to live our lives with or without him. If he is here, that is wonderful, but when he is gone we are going to go about our normal activities and routines." Being a new Navy Wife I thought to myself "WOW! What an insensitive Beotch!!!" I guess i expected her to be sitting around moping with her FOUR CHILDREN just waiting around for him to come home. Now I understand though. I totally get it. You can't just sit around and wait for your loved one to come home. Time would go by way too slowly, for one. And you and your kids would all suffer the consequences. It's not that you don't miss your husband like CRAZY! It's just important to go about your life (not like he doesn't exist of course!!) but to keep other aspects of your life normal, for both you and yours kids sakes.

Why didn't I like this woman? I think it was mainly jealousy, looking back on it. She was a STRONG Navy Wife who had it all together. She had FOUR kids and never had a hair out of place. Her house on base was not just a house...like many are. It was a HOME! With everything organized, candles lit, completely clean. Um, did I meantion this lady has FOUR KIDS??? I have two and my house is a disaster. I asked her how she kept her home so clean and she introduced me to the Fly Lady. Oh Fly Lady...how i love you! And how I wish i had the discipline to follow your routines. I thought this woman was insane because she pulled out this big binder that had all of these lists and routines of house cleaning stuff....including SHINING THE KITCHEN SINK?!?!? Wow, Ok nutso. But that was before I knew what flylady was all about. If you haven't heard of her...go check her out now! I am a wannabe flybaby!! Her routines and.........Ok i am getting off on a tangent here....Anyways, her house was super clean and I was a jealous freak! I want to be like her someday...just less of a bitch.